I HATE that car!

Have I ever mentioned that before? Cause I really truly do! James '93 Camaro is such a POS! He told me last night that he thinks the transmission is going out. After he put in a new engine last year and just spent $1,000 on that car three weeks ago getting it ready to go to NY. I want to scream! I should have pushed it into the river before he came back, lol!

Don't sweat the small stuff...

I think I really need to make that my way of life. I frequently stress myself out over stuff that I really shouldn't. It would save me a lot of stress and headaches if I could put that into practice in my life. All the small things that I snap over would be solved. I am kinda OCD about things. And not really sure why. I keep my house picked up all the time. When a friend was over recently, I started picking thing up the moment the kids abandoned them. I cannot stand having the kids have stuff all over the house, so I pick it up multiple times a day. Does it matter really if the kids splash water out of the tub during a bath (assuming they are not flooding the bathroom anyway, lol). Is it really that bad if they play in the sink in there? I snap at them for doing things that I am sure lots of kids do, and most parents overlook. I hover. At another friends house I hovered over her 1 year old afraid that he would topple off the porch, then hovered over my kids as they climbed up the ladder to the slide that reached my head at the top. I don't want them to get hurt, to the point that there are things I won't let them do. Not always a bad thing, but sometimes it is. I don't let Lily go down stairs by herself if it is more than two or three steps down. She is actually pretty careful on stairs, but that what if always lingers in my head. It doesn't really matter if they decide to dip their fingers in their ranch at dinner, but it bothers me. So I tell them to stop. I want the kids at bed at precisely the right time, and if we are running behind I get frazzled. I want more patience with my kids. I NEED more patience with my kids. *Sigh* Not much of a point to all this, just needing to get it all written down!

James is on his way!

His flight comes in at 11:58 today into our hometown! The kids have no idea, it will be a surprise for them! He is hoping he can be here for a week. I just hope that he spends plenty of quality time with the kids! They have missed him!

Am I really strong enough for this?

Days like this I doubt it. I don't know if I can handle another year on my own. I know single moms do it, and I am not sure how. Maybe its because most of them have to work, so they aren't with their kids 24/7 without a break. I am really hoping that my sister feels better and that she will come watch the kids even though they are being whiney brats. *sigh* I know they don't feel well, but man! This is jsut yet another rant on my blog......seems like thats all I do on here, but oh well! If you read it, deal with it ;)

I think it is decided.....

Due to crazy costs, I think the kids and I will be staying here in Indiana once James gets back from Iraq. Neither one of us wants to be apart, but $6000 just to get a place ($2000 each for rent, security, and broker fee for a two bedroom apartment- yikes!) not including the cost of moving, is just insane! James wants to look at houses here to buy for when he retires, so if we find one, then we will move into that while he is in NY. Once he leaves NY we will move with him (hopefully to KY right Jammie? ;) When he gets back he will come out here for a while, or we will go out there for a while....not sure which yet. Now off to make my next blog.....my huge rant!