Five years already

Well, it has been five years since dad committed suicide today. I have been down, and it hasn't been just that (although I am still not sure what else it is). Maybe it is just that it has been so dreary here for so long. It is pouring down rain outside (in December?!?!?) and is expected to turn to ice this afternoon/evening. I am still mad at dad that he did this. I know that he was pretty down with everything but I never expected him to do this. When my sister called me and told me he was dead and I asked how, she said well, I am sure you can guess- I said heart attack? Well, I just found out last week why I had no idea. Turns out he had called Jen one night saying that he had a gun to his head- and I only found out last week by accident. I was living in Kansas City at the time and I don't know why no one called me about it. If i had known that I would have called him more, or something. I don't know.

New 'Do

So I FINALLY got my hair cut, lol. It has only been 10 months since the last time I got it cut! So I took off about that much in inches- somewhere between 10-12 inches actually, lol. I really like it though- It takes a bit longer to do in the morning but I never did anything with it before and now I can so that is a nice change. Pics will be coming as soon as I figure out how to get them on here! I am sure James will be shocked- I didn't tell him- he will be here the end of this week sometime.

Feeling down lately

And I am not even sure why. Just been kinda down. It may be stress from the holidays rapidly approaching. It could be because tomorrow will have been 5 years since dad killed himself. It could be because my marriage is not what it should be. It could be that my life is not what I imagined. I really have no idea if it is any one of those things, or all of them all rolled up in one. I feel like I never do enough for the kids (even when people tell me that I do). I am hoping that this blah feeling goes away very soon cause I really truly hate feeling like this :( Maybe tonight I will figure out this thing and how to put more pictures on, lol.

Getting Closer to 'M' Day

Well, we officially have one week until Moving Day for the kids and I. Things are going to be hectic this week, especially since the inlaws decided that they need to come up on Thursday and stay til Monday. Since we leave on Saturday that's a little less time with them, lol. But on Monday the moving truck will be here to pack up the remainders of the house.

Lily has decided to boycott taking steps. Little stinker! I think she is really going to miss D-O-G. He is her buddy- she will go up to the sliding door yelling doggy whether he is there or not, lol.

Riley and James have had a busy week- playing with a remote control helicopter. Boys and their toys- they never outgrow it!

Growing up :(

Lily decided yesterday (10-16-07) to take 3 steps without holding onto anything- my little girl is growing up! She is getting bigger! She is now 17 lb 1 oz and 29 1/4 in! Good weight gain the past 3 months for her (2.5lbs)! Riley is 46 lbs 43.5 in! He and James went ot New York this week- it sounds like he had a lot of fun- they are on their way home now but won't be in until late this evening- looks like the noise is back, lol!

We got the House!!!!!

I found out last night that the lady is going to rent us the house! For the first few months I will pay the $1,000 rent and Jennifer will take care of all the utilities- then in March we will both go 50/50 on everything. And it is only a $250 deposit split between us! YAY! So, the kids will have their own rooms (me too!), we will have a washer and dryer there to use, it is close to Jen's school, and it is a nice neighborhood! So things aren't quite as stressful now. Well, except for the fact that I need to pack up what the kids and I will need now. I guess I need to go find some boxes!

Moving soon........but where?

Well, my sister Jen and I have been looking at a house to rent. The people that own it really want it to sell but the market is just so slow right now. They are discussing whether they would want to rent it to us or not. It is a two story house, 4 bedrooms, 2.5 baths, a basement and a two car garage. It has a decent sized yard and is in a great neighborhood. I am really hoping that they will let us rent it- it would be such a burden lifted to know that we will have somewhere to go to as soon as we get to Indiana. It is very close to the school Jen teaches at so if she wanted she could just walk to school. The only draw back of it is that it's further from my mom's house than I like. I can take the bypass and be at her house in 20-30 minutes so it's still not bad though. I am really hoping that we can do this and hopefully it won't be too much for the rent and utilities! We estimated how much utilities would run once we split it in half, and if she charges us the full mortgage monthly payment, it would be about $550 a month for the rent, plus about $260 for the utilities. Which is doable- I can pay $1000 a month for rent and utilities. And it would be so much better than a dinky apartment! The kids can continue having their own room and there will be plenty of space! We should find out this week hopefully!

September 11

Please take a moment of silence to remember all the people and their families that were lost in the 9-11 attacks today!

Another Move *Sigh*

Well, we are still awaiting the official orders, but we will soon be moving to Garden City, NY where James will be stationed next. James is supposed to detach from Selfridge on November 15 and attach to the unit in New York by December 15. The kids and I will move from Michigan to Indiana around the end of October. We will not move to New York right now with James. He is supposed to be there for 2-3 months and then to Camp Lejeune, North Carolina. He will be in NC for 2-3 months and then off to Iraq again. He will be there for anywhere from 6-14 months (most likely 7 months though). So we will be moving very soon! Once he gets back to NY then we will move there with him.